There has been so much that I have thought about writing over the last couple of months. So many sweet things that the munchkins (who have decided that they are too old to be munchkins, and will be Yaehoos instead--how on earth do you spell Yaehoo, anyhow?) have done and said. But, I just really haven't had the heart for it.
Blogging about life is great--when life is great. Blogging about life is hard when life is hard, especially as there are some things that, out of respect for others, probably aren't appropriate to air in public . Unfortunately, we had a really "interesting" holiday period that concluded with some really difficult relationship issues. I don't think this is probably an appropriate place to air the issues or the frustration, anger, and pain that they have brought about. Suffice it to say that those you love the most have the power to hurt you the most.
January and February have been months of much soul-searching, praying, and making some really hard decisions about what boundaries need to be drawn for the sake of our children, our marriage and me, personally. This has to rank up there as one of the hardest things I have ever done. Knowing that there are steps you need to take that are going to not be understood and will cause pain even when you don't want to are never easy, even if they are right. Having to admit to yourself just how broken people can be and just how much "junk" you are carrying around from history isn't fun, and figuring out how to not allow others to blame you for their bad behavior and denial of their wrong choices is no picnic, either....
Gareth is a rock! I know that the world in general take a dim view of a Biblical definition of marriage with a husband leading and a wife submitting. I, though, am so grateful for his willingness to take the lead, make the hard decisions, and to do so in a loving, gentle way that makes submission easy. The kids are doing well. They know that there were some problems, but overall, I think we have been able to shield them from their natural curiosity and the issues that they aren't yet old nough to need to deal with.
For those of you who know and love our family, I'm sure that we would all appreciate your prayers as we try to live out some hard choices in a gracious, God-honoring way that leaves room for reconcilation should situations change.
Too vague? Too dramatic? My apologies, in advance. And now, back to our more typical posts!